Monday, August 06, 2012

We love you, Zachary

Last night was your first night in your high chair!  I can't believe that you will be 4 months old this coming Thursday, August 9th.  I am so proud of you, son.  Your daddy and I love you so much. 

I thank God that I didn't find out about my brain cancer until after you were born.  He even gave me the Grace to breastfeed you and raise you normally for 14 weeks.  He kept you safe when I collapsed.  He allowed the tumor to grow without any symptoms.  The doctors feel that the tumor is slow growing.  The last two neurosurgeons do.  The first neurosurgeon, who didn't want to do surgery, felt that the tumor was fast growing, probably around 3.5 months, but the second and third opinions said that this did not match my symptoms.  If the tumor had been fast growing, I would have had more symptoms.  So I am grateful for that. I read about this teenager in Idaho who died 12 days after giving birth to her son.  She had stage 3 astrocytoma, which is what I have, or at least what I have been told I have and it had spread to other parts of her body.  Which thankfully, for now, I don't have.  I admire this girl's courage.  I would have done the same thing.  Thank you, LORD JESUS for sparing me this decision.

Here is the Stormie Omartian devotional for today:

"Dear God, I thank You that You make all things new.  I pray that today You will make me and my attitude new.  Help me to get rid of any mind-set that would keep me from becoming more like You and receiving the blessings You have for me.  Make me more and more into the image of Christ."

I heard a loud voice from heaven saying..."God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying.  There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."  Then He who sat on the throne said, "Behold, I mae all things new."  Revelation 21:3-5.

I am ready to be made new, LORD!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You are so beautiful and your precious baby and dear husband. Said a prayer your smile is perfect! xo Mel